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May. 28th, 2006

  • 10:47 PM

I have a problem...


I think she's gorgeous. she had her baby yesterday....its a girl. she needs to recooperate and start making her "hot sex" movies lol.
I have nothing better to do in my life but obsess.

May. 15th, 2006

  • 5:04 PM

ok funniest moment in school by far for me lol oh god i cant stop laughing.

well I told sam naylon in adv alg that i was single (mind you we sit like really far apart from one another like im at the other side of the classroom lol.) so I whisper "im single" he goes "your sippin?" lmao.."no I'm single" ..so her sqeaks "your whaaat!" so I snorted which got the class to laugh and he screams "LAUREN IS SINGLE!!" so MR. mac is just like ok...i think the only bad part was that everyone kept asking me what happened and im like omg not ur business lol.

This morning was hard and I knew it would be bc its just gonna hit me that I lost something special but I hope not for good which is friendship wise. but if it does then it does and i tried (that just doesnt look right lol). throughout the day I just kept myself busy and eventually...a smile showed and that got brendan happy. me and brendan had a good time in gym lol. that was fun. poor guy got hit in the face with a freezbe (now idc if that was spelled wrong) but it was a good school day. eh ive been single enough so its not like i didnt kno how to be single lol.

SO tennis was cancelled and what also sucked was that i brought money for myself bc i expected to go to spot but I was like no im not lol. so I came home got my class ring today (its gorgeous..i wont be able to wear till like mid next year bc ill loose it lol its got a green stone i dont remember which one. its got my name across the stone,with diamonds around the stone,then its got music notes on one side and its got HTHS and on the other its a basketball with 2007. and its platnimum. better be i contributed to a lot of the payments dammit lol)shit i lost my thought. yea so 5 min later i went running and I was thinking,"why cant u play tennis in the rain" so I came back home got my racket and I did. I now know why lmao..its so slippery, the ball loses its bounce so you have to hit it like 3x harder which can tear the shoulder muscle . so I was like o okay and I stopped. then I was like "why cant u play basketball in the rain? lmao so I did. I put the whoop up and started playing lol..that was easier.

well I need to shower bc I smell like rained on ass crack if that makes any sense.

but ppl dont fret. I'm aiight ;)

no way out.

  • Feb. 19th, 2006 at 10:09 PM

Fighting for the reason.
To regain my old self.
Fighting for a solution
to all of this pain.
I need to stop hiding.
Its time to come out.
Its time to come out.
Right now.
Dont try to play me.
I've mastered your games.
I'm in control now.
The remote is in my hands.
Dont you see that I'm here?!?!
yearning for you.
Dont you understand
that I have nothing to do.
but I'm not willing to loose, you.
I'll never say I love you
bc who knows if its true.
I cant stand the sight of you
but your still beautiful some how.
Cant you see I'm crazy
and this dont make sense.
Cant you see im miserable
but give me one more chance.


  • Jan. 14th, 2006 at 4:04 PM

I'm so happy for her right now!!!!

its a 2006 Saturn ION. were getting it tuesday!!!


now when I get my liscence and such i can have the older one!!


Aug. 3rd, 2005

  • 9:33 PM


Jul. 12th, 2005

  • 7:29 PM

Reply to this with at least five well known people (be it celebrities, musicians, or story characters etc..) that remind you of me. Then post this in your journal to see who you remind others of.

the night sky

  • Jun. 26th, 2005 at 12:29 AM

u kno what I noticed? this just hit me btw. But whenever I think about cindy, the night sky is different. Its got like a pink in it and idk y bc pink isnt her fav. color or anything. It looks like how it does in the winter u kno? if u notice how during the winter especially if its snowing it sometimes has that pretty pink shade mixed in with the navy blue sky. Its beautiful it always took my breath away. Who knew that she could even if she's miles away.


  • Jun. 23rd, 2005 at 6:38 PM

ok I got so many good comments from ppl on the poetry club community so I had to show it to u guys.. its called fear

I sit under at night
and gaze at the stars.
I count them and think
if I die will I ever go up there?
It runs through my mind,
like a roller coaster gone wild.
My head starts to spins
as I think harder and harder
I yearn for the answer
held deep within.
I guess my fear is just
going to hell and to be never seen again.